Is it worth?

Somehow I come to know that almost the guys who used to chase, love me and get refused by me have girlfriends at the present. Well, I don't regret of the past because at least I decided to wait for Willian at that time and I meant to do that.

You know, nobody could possibly wait for someone forever...

Because of him, I always had to build a solid wall to keep others from me.

Because of him, I missed a lot of chances to be in relationship with someone that truly loved me.

Because of him, I didn't need my pride.

Because of him, I didn't fear time, long distance or any barrier between us.

Because of him, I could let him make a fool of me.

Because of him, I accepted to get hurt and put more sorrow on this heavy heart.

Because of him, I could forgive times that he caused me to suffer.

Because of him...

I'm still all alone at the present :)

Would I become like those guys someday? When my patience has gone, would I be able to find out someone as boyfriend and fall in love again like they do? I doubt it!

Since I'm the kind of consistent person, my love would never ever easily fade away no matter how long it takes. It's really my own shortcoming that leads me from these scars to other pains.

Why do I have to sacrifice too much like that? It's weird that I've never felt sorry for loving him. 

Is it worth, Hal? 

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"Tại sao chịu chấp nhận hy sinh bao giờ cũng là nữ nhân chúng ta? Rất kỳ lạ là chúng ta đến nửa điểm oán trách cũng không. Rốt cuộc là đáng hay không đáng?"