my own credit :)

Have I ever once in my entire life took a chance to enjoy something called happiness perfectly without paying any price?

Don't I deserve a reward for what I have been doing that much? 

I always want to be a good one, yet good things does not seem to greet me completely. Sometimes I start to feel scared of happiness, of something good in a short time due to the fact that I have no idea how much I would pay for this moment next.

A reward is not really something resulting in my furious. The point is I can't get through this problem because I have enough qualities, or even more than that to win this trophy.

But, how come everything come to this way? I don't understand...Anybody can explain me?

Having just broken down in tears, yet I'm feeling so blank at the moment anyhow :) Perhaps this life constantly treats me very badly and unjustly.

One thing leads to others, I've got so used to it...yup, poor me!

Accept my fate and keep the flame of hope burning inside me. I dunno when, but I believe one day I will escape frome this society and be free like a bird at a place that my interests are considerably protected.

I believe in myself. I deserve it and I'm aware of who I am. "...start giving myself credit for everything that I am." That's enough!

Smile and be shoo shoo >.^

~ Hal