Healing by friends

It has been after midnight a bit...

I have just had a long talk to Phi & Jun regarding mini stories that could possibly lift my mood up and make me laugh out loud. Sometimes a long lasting friendship is a greater treasure in one's life than such a mere fleeting relationship.

Honestly, there has been no tears dropping from my eyes since yesterday. It's not because I attempted to restrain my emotions and pretend to stay cool before others, it's just the high time for me to let it go and get rid of a pointless relationship.

I was unable to pull back something that has never genuinely belonged to me no matter how many times I convinced myself that it was all my faults, I was not good enough for him. However, in the end of the day, the truth was still there, reflecting every pain and forgettable memories in details so clearly that no more excuse would be reasonable to me again.

What's done is done, what's gone is gone! Unfortunately, I'm not the kind of person who might forget everything and let things go that easily. Once I was in love, I would use my lifetime to treasure and memorize it endlessly no matter how much the person might change.

In this case, the mindset, however, seems to work much better than the silly and naive heart which constantly leads me to false paths, clouds my vision of perception for a while and then drags me down to hell with a broken heart. Somehow this time, things are just running differently...

Perhaps, it's about timing...not about my willingness.

Thanks to some best friends who "sacrificed" their hours of sleep chatting to me and cracking me up, I suppose I'm going to get through this period much more quickly than I made it out to be. You know, I feel like I'm blessed and lucky to get some amazing friends in my life. Just very few but certainly enough to feel proud of them. I do appreciate their awkward jokes to cheer me up for my sake since they have already comprehended that it would be impossible to succeed 100%, though they have continuously been doing their utmost.

Love you all, dearies!!! You are so precious to me that I never want to let you leave me. Relationship is probably unnecessary but friendship is a must, isn't it?!

My friends swore they would break off with me if I dare to think of Willian again. Sound scary, huh? But don't worry, I promise :p 

Merci, mon amies :* Bed time now!!! Goodbye the past...please get out of my mind from now on and let me live happily :)

Love,

Hal

xoxo

Tom quote for me: "Stay well. Change yourself. Be mature"